mixed..

1. went to causeway pt
2. walk back in the rain

the 1st one still make me more emo.
ah, crap im turning to an emo boy, i dont like, i was never like this. i dont like being alone, i dont like being at home now, i dont like nights, i dont like days where i dont have anything to do. i get really emo ): ahh, i wish i can smile.

right now there are 2 voices saying different things, guess its a battle of mind and heart. my mind never lose before, but i guess this time it is. sigh.. the most rationale decision i cant seem to make, stubborn heart, stupid, idiot.

comeondhikamoveonitsovernothingsleftforgetit.comeoncomeonstopthinkingaboutitaboutthepast.giveupdontlookbackturnawayrunaway.youmuststartnewforgetthepastevensheforgotandmoveonevenshehasanotherguyalready,whyyoucantmoveondhikastupidstupid.comeonshedontloveyounomoreitsovershesfallingforsomeoneelsenotyounotanymorestophopingstartliving.justmoveonpleasestophavinghopetheresnothingleftforyoutoholdongetoverthisonceandforallitsforyourowngooddhika.getbackonyourfeetitsnotyourcallanymoreitsoveritsreallyreallyover.yourenothinganymore,imnotevensurewhetherallthesetimesitwererealoritsjustallfakes.yourenothingshehasanotherguynow.

but its hard.

i can do it.

from now, take a small step after another.

we are friends.

and you are always in my prayer, as a friend. hopefully He protects you from everything that try to disturb you, keep you away from all evil and evil intentions. but know that theres a reason for everything, but ill still pray for you everyday, and for your safety, and for your healing. always give thanks to Him.

OKAY, finished emo-ing!

im gonna start work at the 4th week, nows only start of 2nd week, im gonna be unemployed that long! no income, freeloading, i feel like crap. lets see, wednesday,thursday,friday,saturday,sunday, and 1 more week, thats long! i gonna die! ): anybody free? :p

oh and all the best for NS people, whoever read this, ivan who will go tmr, and mx and yh 2 more days. all the best, see you all in 19 more days and see your botak head! see me in school (:

and wish me all the best for doing nothing for 2 weeks, no asylum, please.