counting down to the end of holidays..

It's the 4th week of June now, and holiday is seriously coming to an end. well, at least its longer for the uni students, the JC and sec school are starting next week! for us, 2 months has passed! and we are left with the last month of holiday. thats a big OH NO. dammit. and i havent got any job done yet. shucks to the core.

this post comes abit late though (usually sunday) but yesterday i was exhausted from the housewarming and tennis (more on that later) so i can only manage to start writing today. hey its not easy to write okay! compiling pictures, recalling events, editting pictures, editting html. more or less will take me around 1 hr (or more). but its a great place to put all the memories of everyday (: be it happy or sad.

well, as usual started on monday. monday was (supposedly) finding a job day. but unfortunately, it was cancelled (due to a combination of reasons, most significant one is the inability to wake up so early) so then nothing on the day but i went to my bathch anniversary dinner at westmall. met Elaine (more accurately, talk to)for the first time after a very long time! haha, met the rest of the excos there (except jialin.) argued on the place to eat, and after so long, we decided on mcdonald -.-" afterwards was pool session with them till 1130pm, then we all head back home. took mrt back with elaine, had our long-due chat, and walked back to hall from pioneer mrt \-.-/

and heres to pa0607 and my excos: thanks for being such a family for me over these past few years. pa has been and will always be a family in my heart! well, we had our share of disagreements and conflicts and heartbreaks, but im glad we are still united as one. it's our 3rd anniversary and im so happy that we still gather and talk about our lives, our past, present and future. you guys are the greatest bunch of team ive ever had, and i look forward to working (or more to) playing with you all again! well, we're always a small and cosy family (:

heh, and one night that explains many sleepless nights. well, quoted that from sh. haha, its funny that we can reminisce our past and laugh all about it. we said things that we wouldnt or couldnt have said a few years back. we explained things that couldnt be explained a few years back. but life goes on, make peace with the past so we can have a better future. and thats what we did. (:

Wednesday was our another SUPPOSEDLY finding a work day. we ended up going to IKEA to shop for wing's housewarming present. (and most of the time is spent admiring their home design technique and us wanting to have such a home like those in ikea.) spent quite a loooooooooong time in ikea before we head to marina square to have our dinner! daphne was coincidentally there too! so there was, me, oe, yoga, tanaja, yt, kong and daphne! we ate at MOS, some nice food and some nicest dessert. haha, last time we went out together was quite long ago, more than a week! and that means more than a week without staying over and l4d-ing! tsk! hahaha.. so after MOS-ing, we went straight to GAMING! haha, arcading more accurately. WAS DAMN FUN. haha, spent over $10 buck on arcade including challanging yt to a guitarhero game, completing time crisis 2 with yoga, played some crazy taxis and the animal capturing watever crap, and spent like $4 buck entirely on the drum thingy, which i died on the 1st round (AGAIN) because kong anyhow chose a stupidly difficult song. haha. went to pool shortly afterwards (2nd time in a week), and then went back home.

Thursday, me and oe went back to rebecca and went for our singtel training, more on mio-TV though, our trainer was a guy, who i thought was quite old, but turns out to be our junior next year! haha, not exactly junior, but an NTU freshman next year. mio is quite interesting, but the boss sucks. just sucks. went for an ljs dinner, then went home! (then i think at night i played l4d with raz, joce and yoga)

Friday was another day full of activities too! (notice that its alternate days :P) went for tuition in the morning/afternoon for the 2nd time. and i still like my new tutee cos shes smart :p so theres not much to teach her :P HAHAHA. went for GL meeting (super late, just wanted to play l4d after that) but in the end everyone ditched the l4d idea and went to movies. me? nah, not for movies with them. so i went to play pool (yeah, 3rd time in the week) with jolyn and terence. played for 3 hrs this time. woo. but kena trashed.

went back and found a plastic bag on my bed, i was like "eh whos plastic bag is this" cos usually its wenhao one and he like to keep his plastic bag full of clothes lying around on my place :p lucky i havent scold him yet cos they told me is my present! :D haha, opened it and got a big shock cos its the jacket that i said i wanted. disclaimer: that was not a hint for my birthday present okay. haha, and i know that its quite ex (or very ex to my standard) that i wanted to save for it (which i doubt ill succeed). hah, i was happily surprised :D thanks thanks thanks guys! hahaha.

then we went to l4d that night and i would say we played well that night! haha, well, as usual expert on hospital (cos thats the only map that we can survive on expert), died once on 2nd level cos the tank appeared infront of the starting safe house. and thats it! we finished it with 3 man standing (and that includes me! so i got my achievement) but more than that is that we almost got "untouchables" and i believe we wouldve got it, and survive with all survivors taking no damage if yoga's lappie didnt hang at the right timing: when he was chased by the 2nd tank. sad story.

saturday night we went to wing's house for housewarming. from the outside the apartment was simply 'wow', inside was small but very nicely decorated and plus those big HD TVs, blu ray player, 24" wii, surround system, mahjong table, wine and full aircon. yeah, its damn right cozy. started with assault on precinct 13, along with ice wines, continued with a short l4d, and then some wii gaming, and followed by pizzas and chicken wings, (at wing's house :P), and followed by step up 2, then step up 1 (reverse huh :P) and suddenly it was 7am in the morning, and i had to leave for tennis.

on sunday morning, tennis-ed with the usual people, ivan, mx and yh. (with the 2 girlfriends hanging around there), continued with table tennis because the weather was scorching and me (especially) cant stand hot weather :P. then a 10 year old boy came and trashed all of us! hahaha, well not exactly trashed or lose though, but im like double his age, so you cant count me as a loser. hahahaa.. damn. taxi-ed my way to church, stayed awake thruout the whole mass :D and then JP for lunch with oe at pepperlunch, and then home. 6-hrs of fable after that. oh yeah, fable is a RPG game that i just started playing. quite nice, but not so great. and then i got sleepy and slept for like 14 hrs till 12pm this morning! hahaha.. oh and reaper too, another tv series that i just started, so far, not bad.

what a great week. (well, a week like this is quite great for me, considering the usual nuah-ing), tomorrow will be paintball day if alls goes well. anyone keen on joining us playing paintball? just call me before.. 12am tonight? hehehe. looking forward for another great week! (:

and more importantly, looking forward for another l4d VERSUS night. when are we going to start doing 3v3 or 4v4 again?!!? im super looking forward for it! ahahaha, hint hint hint hint!!! XD

alot of things week, handover+outings+meetings

puh, this week was and is and gonna be hectic. gone are my nuahing and slacking days, and here comes the busyness altogether. well, its fun in some way, but i seriously miss the nuahing times around my room here. seriously considering going back to the slacking and doing nothing except gaming state ^^

PA handover camp is the highlight of this week. wednesday, thursday and friday. well, its the 4th handover camp that i've been through. (and most probably one of the last ones) since im not very close with the current batch and cass&mel batch, (which are the last ones on my batch) just graduated from the crew. but if everyone still go back, why not! heh, camp was (ahem) unprepared. haha, guess it was the lack of preparation cos of the lack of time. but well, i hope everyone had fun and me, i had fun (: haha, politics and stuffs are not my business already. how are they gonna keep the rejected people are not my business already. im just hoping all the best for the new people (:

today, was the 3rd day that i consecutively went to vivocity. haha, yet another PA outing. but it was more of a senior's outing cos all the juniors apparently pangseh-ed. sigh, so sad. anyway, zp and kz were there too (counted as seniors cos now theres some new juniors on PAA) haha. kayh, xium, xm, elton, choon, sh, mx, me, ivan, zp, kz and sam. not bad for attendace. haha, had games (twister, tutututututu) and then dinner (some japanese restaurant) and then dessert (bakerzin). money = depleting super duper fast.

monday was GL meeting, more specifically mass dance comm. we literally did almost nothing. well, i did nothing. haha, tmr supposed to learn the 'nobody' dance. wtf. im so dead, and i decided that im not doing it and ill tell them tmr its too gay. not looking forward at all for the meeting tmr.

tuesday was nuahing day. haha, one day in the week that i actually can slack. but well, its like everyday already. so i dont feel much of a difference.

next monday is the job hunting and shopping day! supposedly hunting for job with kong, oe and yt. then going to ikea! haha, at night supposed to celebrate pa0607 anniversary at westmall. lookinglooking forward to that! (:

im super bored. and im lazy to type. and this post only have one picture so far. i shall add another one just so that it doestn look so empty.

lousy attempt to change my wallpaper by yt.

My birthday week (:

HOHO, after every birthdays, the most important (and tiring) part is the replying people to say thank you for the wishes! so, im sorry if i dont reply you personally, but i shall mention here so that you know i dont forget every single one of you (:

A BIG THANK YOU for the.. (in no particular order, just how i remember it)

7 birthday wishes by the 6 people in my room when the clock strikes 12.
7 people who celebrated my birthday before the clock reach 12 on the next day XD
2 birthday wishes by my 2 GLs one day before my birthday

58 facebook wishes (Some are close friends, some i dont even know who)
18 smses
6 msn convos
1 phone call

and more which i seriously forgot at this point of time but i remember deep in my heart :D hahahahaha.. (:

ahh, and its finally weekend, sunday, im alone in my room (i dont really know where the rest are at now) and finally i have some time to update my blog again. as usual, weekly update! (:

MONDAY was a very happening day. we celebrated oe's birthday (which is like one month ago) and yeah, we just celebrated it on monday. there were cake, and alcohol. haha. there were kong, yt, yoga, wenhao, oe, joce, raz and me.

Everyone was high and crazy, yoga was the first to get drunk and started dancing, the rest started to get KO-ed one by one after that and started sleeping. well, im sure i was sober and i can still recall the incidents on that night (although not crystal clear-ly) hehe.. me, yt and oe was awake until the next morning, where oe and yoga left for soccer (and oe puked like hangover), yt went to a deep slumber in the morning, and then me, i went for my DIP final presentation right after drunkard night. haha.

DIP final presentation on tuesday, so damn boring, it will be one line. we didnt get to final, and thats one happiest moment of my life.

then onwards until today i totally had no idea what has been going on. haha, The Sims 3 and Left4Dead has occupied my time, (and everyone's around me) theres no fixed sleeping time, theres no fixed waking up time. initially bimbolian was playing with my lappie so when she sleep, i play for 12 hrs straight, then when i sleep, she play for 12 hrs straight. thats like cool. totally immersed in the life of our sims. kong and yoga are sims addict too. hahaha. its seriously damn addictive.

left4dead has been like my gaming crazy since dunno when. im sure its one of the games i played for so long and yet still not bored yet. haha. yesterday we finally cleared our first expert campaign! hoho, we even cleared it 2x! one for 2hrs40mins and the next one is 1 hr earlier! hahaha, although i died in both of the campaign (well, when playing expert, sacrifices is still needed to complete the game) hahhaa.. i havent got my expert achievement yet, but mac and yt's com have it already! haha. me, yoga, mac and wh was playing though, and i seriously think to play an expert mode is totally different from the other modes. FUN.

one of the days, (i think its wednesday), we also played versus like crazy. 7 people, 3v4. haha, i won twice and lost once. the first team was me, mac and yoga. then me, mac and yt, then me, raz and yt. it was seriously damn stressful and fun at the same time! adrenaline was rushing throughout the game and as yt says, l4d brings out the bad in people when they are put under stressed and started to scold each other. hahaha, but all in all, after the game, all we had is fun.

and this is already sunday, and seriously i really wanna do some useful work soon. as in like earning money and stuff. i had spent enough time wathcing movie, playing and playing and playing times infinity. time for me to start doing useful stuff. or should i? like continue for another week? hahaha, seriously. i want to stop but i still feel like playing. feel like nuahing the entire holiday and just play.

im seriously enjoying my no-life life.

oh and the cat that always come to my place has stepped on to another level. now he/she dont care already whether people see her or not, she just go into the room, find a comfy place and sleep! -.- irritating, now i need to wash alot of laundries. damn. irritating cat keep trying to bite my finger summore. hahaha, but shes quite cute.

although i still got more things to write on about, but i feel like stopping because i wanna play again. XD well, its sunday and its supposedly my last day of playing. i rather do some awesome air-kicks rather than sit around and mop about it.

weekend update.

as usual, im updating again on the weekend, where there are less people having fun in my room and therefore i have some time for myself to sit back and reflect about this whole week and get ready to face the new week ahead of me (: hehe, this week has been, fun!

big news is that wenhao finally came back. turns out he was doing some retreat, sit back and reflect on his life for one whole month in his home without any contact with outside civilisation (particularly the ones in singapore) well, i was expecting something like diet programme for 1 month but that will do. hehe, so now he's back here (acutally now sleeping on the mattress below my bed.) no change in size however with change in hairstyle! (havent gotten a chance to take a picture yet) he'll be here more often now though, so my room fill be just more packed! haha..

speaking about my room being pack, im expecting next week to be full of people! including wenhao now, there'll be the usual people, yoga, yt, kong, evonne and joce. well, its gonna be messy and stuff im sure! haha, but today we cleaned up the room! scrubbed the toilet with full attire, swoop and mopped the floor till its clean. hehe, but its still as messy as before though, cant do a tidy room with alot of stuff and people in the room anyway :P

and i still havent gotten any income source yet so its broke broke and broke. im really sorry that i pangsehed alot of outings this week. pangsehed alot of invitation to go out too! really sorry cos im flat broke and trying to minimise expenditure including the one on the EZlink card, I M-U-S-T get a job real soon. real real soon or ill starve to death (after my instant noodle supply is drained out)

time for recalling last week stuffs.

Jay and yt came on monday if i dont recall wrongly. and then i totally forgot what we did early in the week. shits, i think i must keep a logbook on what we did everyday if not its so wasted i dont remember! -.- i can only recall it quite clearly from wednesday onwards.

wednesday was because we went out to watch barcelona vs man u match! haha, we went out to the cafe beside the man u cafe at boat quay there. well, it certainly was fun! (aside from the uncivilised 'people' around us who keep shouting and scolding vulgarities), well, watching a match with such atmosphere is quite nice sometimes! match was really good and barca deseves to win! (: we almost kena scammed by the pub though, suddenly theres a minimum of $30/person! WHAT THE HELL, like, even marche its $10/person. there were 6 of us there so we must order $180. and you know how broke i am. i even go to mcs to get my dinner before going to that pub. luckily with our pitiful faces we managed to getaway with $100+ only. still painful on the wallet though, still owe oe for that. haha.

thursday me, oe and yt went out to watch my first 3D movie (in a very long time) which i hoped that itll be a drastic change from the last time. we watched monsters vs aliens! i was expecting some polarized glasses technology, but instead, they still stick to anaglyph image. well, that was the technology like 5 years ago. but still, the movie experience was great! so much has improved! the movie, story, and the 3D! good movie. to think about it, i think we were quite lucky! went to vivo first just to find out the only seats left were 1st row, then we change to cathay, where only 2nd row is available! but turns out that 2nd row give a very good 3D experience :D lucky.

friday was finally l4d night. haha, well finally we got to play after one week havent played it quite much. there were me, oe, yoga, yt and jocelyn. well, we are still improving continually and thats good (: hehe, finally got through advance without much difficulty. after l4d we went to watch college. some m18 college comedy. i was damn tired i was half sleeping all the way. yt was the one who is very awake and watched all those m18 stuff. hohoho. then we all cant take it and went to sleep.

saturday morning i heard alot of voices, dom, mccarl, kong, but i didnt wake up. haha, im just too tired from the whole week of super little sleep and finally getting a long sleep. in fact, i woke up at 4pm o.O (and yt woke up even later, 5-6pm -.-) then we went out to meet wenhao in town! (this is the day when we meet wenhao after 1 month), haha, after wenhao then we met raz, then dom and eechan. then me, oe, wh and yt went to paradise to play lan again -.-" haha, and guess what game. l4d. haha, just as we are reaching our final house, suddenly there was a blackout. sian.. -.-.. then we all went home, we took 502express to pioneer mall (where we saw elaine) then supper at ahlian. and yt went with bus16 after paradise back home.

oh at town we went to shop! (initially the plan was to go to flyer to go for some GSS for oe but i guess we were too late) well, the saddest part is that GSS is coming, and ive no money to spend o.O SADDEST. we went around, at billabong i saw a damn nice jacket, another must have for me, its $115. i gotta save up. then we went topshop and i dont even dare to look around. saw a nice jacket but quickly dismissed it :p haha, window shopping is painfull.

2 broke people windowshopping T_T

ahh, today was already described up there :p hehe, and i got the sims3 already! hohoho, i finished downloading it yesterday. the official launch here is 2nd june. well i guess pirates have more privilages sometimes :P hehehehe..

and the last part of the post is about the upcoming week! (its like 4:46 now and i have a 9am class again tmr T.T)

next week (actually today is already next week) is my last week of DIP (FINALLY THANK GOD!) and finally i can really concentrate to find work! heh, finally the stupid DIP is over ill have more time for me! yeah.. and work, and wasting time, and earning money. cmon cmon, anyone got lobang i seriously need it :P hehe. and more or less thats all for next week, i havent got any plan except to hurry up clear this irritating DIP.

oh and my birthdays coming, and i guess itll be a sucky thing to NOT HAVE MONEY to spend on your own birthday. haha, sad life.

ooo and experimenting with panorama shot, take a look at my first try :p

being a gamer

lately i've stumped on this blog, written by a british girl, 22 years old, musician, and a gamer. i respect her as a gamer and it made my strive to game more.. hohoho, seems like the old fire is burning all over again.

just some random thing because im bored doing my dip project (actually today ive done nothing related to work other than resoldering something that was done quite poorly cos we were rushing)

l4d achievements!

broke, broken, brokened.

hoookay, and im officially broke and i really need a job soon! any job! :S (yeah im so desperate now, please if anyone got lobang anywhere (: a one-time job will be best because of my irritating school project)

and weekend is here, and i've gotta hold the thoughts of going out with friends, hanging out with old friends, outing, reunion and etc etc because my pocket apparently is quite thin :p well, its not so bad because its not so bad staying in hall on the weekend too! for the geek in me, theres LAN computer games, theres movies and series to watch! for the not-so-geek in me, theres many sports i can play including soccer, badminton, and tennis! sounds not so bad, no need to travel, not much money spent. (altho i really really need some vacation, some holiday, some escape)

and yesterday we went out to the city! well, not exactly. we went to iluma at bugis, the new mall with the filmgarde cinema. and i realise howw longggg since i last went to the city. (not so long, but the point is that not so often and usually just there for one purpose only) gone the times where we stroll along the orchard road with really nothing to do, no destination. go window shopping at plaza sing, at cineleisure. now everytime i go to town, theres a specific destination and target to achieve, after that, catch the last bus/train back. so much for living (literally) outside the country.

but yesterday, again, we cabbed back! (pain for the wallet) because apparently after our 1st movie, angels and demons, we weren't satisfied enough and we went on to watch a midnight movie, night at the museum 2. hohoho (altho its another painful thing to the wallet) BUT, it was worth it! especially the company of course :D

angels and demons exceeds my expectation of a remake of a book. its fantastic and brilliant. much better than da vinci code, really. my only dissapointment was knowing the antagonist at the start of the movie. all the briliant plots and twists is spoilt by that. if only i had forgotten the bad guy. BUT apparently, someone did! yiting actually shed a tear for the bad guy! hahaa, kena bluffed by the twist. nice move. swollen eye.

night at the museum 2 was, okay, so-so. funny, yeah but not that hillarious. meaningful, yeah but not so much. so its just a so-so movie. 3/5 will do. but yeah, i mean not bad (: haha. after movie we went to mcdonalds nearby for supper, and apparently joce need to go back so, well, me oe and yoga needa accompany her, and as a result left yt and kong at mcs that morning waiting for bus. (well, they are not online up till now, hopefully they got back safely)

funny thing was night at the museum 2 started at 12:10am, and oe reminded my at the start of the movie that results are out! haha, took awhile to get my mind off it and only to check it on joce's new iphone after movie. was scary to check, really, and as expected, screwed up my last paper EE2001, B- and material science gave me a B+ though i expected more. but, well, i met my target, so im not so sad, but quite dissapointed cos i thot i can do better. well, i didnt maintain my score.

no update on the weekdays because it was filled with gaming everyday (and as usual my DIP follows before and after gaming) sleep deprivation is an everyday thing. haha, we even bought 2 mattresses! my room looked like a chalet, all the floor is covered with mattresses. haha, we woke up to play, and play before sleeping. von and kong came on monday and yt since last friday/saturday. yoga is in the room too! imagine 7 people sleeping in one room. hahahha, well, dont imagine too much or it may go wrong. haha.. spent watching movies (saw, twilight) and playing games (L4D, Warcraft 3, Counter Strike) but kong and yt left on thurs, and von on wed. after that my room is back to the normal not-so-noisy state. well, its always good cos i can catch up with my sleep, but i always look forward for them to come again and game again! (hahaha, we talked about this yt! go find other activity, we have no life!)

and apparently the arcade at iluma is hiring, hope yiting can get there and get me in as well :D hehehehe.. working in an arcade, what else can i ask for XD HAHAHA.. and YITING! i want the photos! a long post like this without the photos is just boring!!!! gimme all ur photosssssss :D

ohh, and wenhao for some reason is uncontactable and gone like the wind. where are you? if you're reading this, contact us!

!!!!

spock!

rock scissors paper lizard spock!

went to watch star trek with oe, yoga and yt yesterday, or rather today as midnight movie! to summarize it, the movie is awesome! i am seriously considering watching the old star treks again now because the movie is great! and the actors were amazing too! 4/5 from me. zachary quinto plays well as spock just like he plays sylar. great story idea, great animation and CG, what else can you ask for. well at first i thot its a movie for geek, so i got some guys (and yt) to watch with me, but seriously, its a great movie whether you are a geek or not. haha.

"when you have eliminated the impossible, whatever left, however improbable, is the truth" -sherlock holmes, as quoted by spock.

when the dvdrip version come (oops) ill get it along with the subtitles cos i didnt really catch everything and all the sciency things is too cheem for me.

next movies on the list - angels and demons, night at the museum2, transformers2, harry potter, more to come along.

and the saddest thing happened to me on friday, my harddrive, my 1000GB=1TB hard drive went into some haywire mode! now it cant be detected time by time! this is damn scary, my 600GB worth of movies, tv series, games, applications and most importantly my documents! pictures, videos, etc is there, and only there! i can go and jump off if my harddrive fails me. my data are of utmost importance! checking the harddrive for bad sectors and errors now, if nothing is wrong, means the problem is with the connection part, and then i can go to maxtor to repair it, WITH SPECIFIC instruction of IMPORTANT DATA, can't be lost. (but i scared they check all my piracy :P) okay, i hope my hard drive will recover soon. please. :'(

amos came on friday, and his hair looks like jesus (according to many here) haha, apparently he hasn't done any hair cutting since he left NJC. wow thats quite an achievement. and his guitar skills really improve horigibly (even thats an understatement) seriously, he's the musician i respect the most, and im gonna catch him playing at one of those places real soon. (: anyway, me, amos and hari went to play diablo2 (like again) from 12am till 6am. thats, 6 hours. and we started from level 1, and we slayed diablo in 6 hours! HAHA, well its a deja vu. when we were sec4, during our o levels we did the exact same thing, except that we ended at 10am, means 4 hours more, and we achieve half of what we achieved on friday! we only started the 3rd city. what an improvement. haha. now shall wait for christmas and get our hands on diablo III and then do some rampage again. (:

and the thailand people had returned! yiting has been here since friday, reading twilight at half the normal speed because of her OCD. and im expecting the other 2 to come today and stayover as usual :D well, finally a happening weekend (and confirm lack of sleep next week)

its 2 weeks into DIP and theres another 2/3 more weeks, i just have to hang on there, show face, and play my plants vs zombies.

1005-2009

hello mum! today is mother's day so i wanna say, HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!! (what else) hahaha..

yesterday night i was quite bored with the usual TV series so i went to watch an indonesian movie titled 'love is cinta', the title sure sounds cheesy and corny but well, i was bored you see. the story is about a guy who died in an accident and is given 3 days to live again to finish his business on earth (that is actually the main story, to tell his feelings to his best friend who is a girl of course), but the thing is, his body was destroyed(?) so he can only use other people's body and then the story goes on how he tries to convince the girl and his family that he is himself. confusing?

but the thing i wanna say is that, i didn't expect the movie to be so impactful on me. well, i literally cried when his mom and dad finally believe that he is himself, but its the last day, so he was saying goodbye to the two of them. literally cried like i never did in any movie before. (luckily i was alone in my room). BUT then on the finale, when the girl finally believe him (like, last minute before he fly to heaven, stupid girl) well, i didn't even feel any feeling. haha, i think its the actors. so fake.

well the point is, i love my family. i love my mum, love my dad. but i dont know why but it feels weird saying it to them. when they say they love me, i can never reply that i love them too. its like, its weird and embarassing. but really, mom, dad, deep inside, i love you all very much (: and im sure you know that without me saying it out loud. (haha the cowardly me only dare to put it here since they wont read it). and since its the occasion, happy mother's day! i love you mum (:

a confession i wanna make: sometimes i woke up crying because of a bad dream involving my parents. these kind of dreams are the scariest one. and you will feel very relieved that its just a dream (well of course i woke up with tears because of other dreams too that i wont put it here) :P and only after that you realise how you love your parents so much. people say that you only treasure something after you lose it. everytime, we forget how important is our family to us. only when they are gone, we will remember, but thats just too late.

i know most of the times i sound uninterested when talking to both of you, sometimes sound annoyed and irritated. sometimes im irrational and tempramental. sometimes i look like im not happy around you, or maybe seems disrespectful when i disobey you or shouting back at you. im sorry that if i hurt you in one way another, i hope ill be better next time.

well, to end this point, happy mothers day! (;

going to the next topic is that, i cut my hair yesterday. haha, and if you know me, ill complain after every haircut, as usual. its always not what i expected, too short, too long, theres always something wrong. thats why i want to learn hairdressing and cut my own hair. haha, anyway, heres a shot from my low quaily laptop webcam.

luckily my hair grow in an amazing speed (i think thats what everyone think about their hair right, maybe except yt:P) and i expected it to grow again soon, and by then i wanna cut it the way it should be! haha, ill give detailed instruction to the hairdresser, i dont care. haha.. and my hair is all black already, around 6 months? and the coloured part of my hair is gone already. anyway i found this shot when i just cut my hair on february. it was nicer back then! damn. anyway, the shot was taken on a plane! :p

ok i shall stop with all the narcissistic photos! hahaa, and thatll be all about my post today. well, i dont know why my post nowadays are long like crap. haha, but yeah, maybe because ive nothing to do now :\ wasting my whole day watching shows :P

oh and today is.
you know. so happy 10th may. :p