100th!

my 100th post!

today i went to finish time crisis 4 (finally :p) haha, 2 continues! haha, 4 lives for $0.60 :D i can play like hell :p and today my driving instructor shook my hand and say i passed.. hehe, then i go to church, then go eat dinner.

ohh and after church, there was a technical problem, the sound cant be heard cos too echoey, and I GOT TO DO SOMETHING! wah so fun, after so long not doing these things, so i take the mic, its shure, but old ones. 4 cordless. i think aged, so cant response to frequencies properly, sound result too basey and not clear. went to the control room too! saw a mixer, i guess its 24 channels, yamaha, never see properly, get to play with the eq and fader and gain xD so fun! haha, got to check the connections too! funny, cordless routed to group 1 and 2 and group 1 and 2 rerouted to mix, and condenser straight away to mix. its weird. but who cares.. haha, and the mixer is not so old! the condensers are good! but the place have too much echo, high building, long too, large walls, ONE (1) speaker infront. ohno, haha, of course. somewhat it was a fun experience :p

what a fun day. and a wonderrful 100th post :D
im happy i guess.. and i guess it has been long since i made someone happy :/
i gotta make someone happy (:

and im gonna start today (:
goodnight!

If what fate has written for me

is the best for you

then i'll make you

the most beautiful memory in my life

but it won't be easy for me

to leave my path of life

that had been engraved

as the most beautiful memory

merry christmas to all.. (:
its abit late though.. ;p

so here i am trying to make the best of my few days here before i come back to the hectic, stressful life in singapore :p and im spending it by sitting hours inside a car and rotting, and playing a gameboy SP, great. i hope i can make it though, back there, alone.

and 2007 has been a wonderful year, funny though, alot of things happened, and 2007 is a year that i will not forget. i had my best birthday in 2007 and my worst christmas in 2007 too. theres a date in 2007 that i can never forget, and theres a date i dont want to remember anymore. good times, and bad times, both extremes. 2007 had been a really wonderful year for me, thanks for the memories. and 2008 is coming, better strap your seatbelt, put your left foot on the clutch and your right on the brake (too much driving lesson :p), and be prepared for anything that will happen. all the best!

once more,
thanks for the memories. thats for the company, thanks for the friendship, thanks for the love.

its almost christmas!

have been trying to go to blogger, but only now i can get in here.

today was wonderful, christmas celebration with the big family, father side. it was warm, cozy, and im grateful that God has given me such a wonderful big family that always gather every year for christmas together. dinner, prayer, praise and worship, sharing, and EXCHAGE GIFT ;p it was nice to see a family coming together, meeting uncles, aunties, cousins, even small nephews and nieces. and one of my cousin is getting married next year, and the boyfriend just share it today (: it would be perfect if you were there with me.

so, ive been filling my days with movies and comics, and some driving lessons too (: oh and of course games too! Final fantasy XII, disgaea 2, greys anatomy, stardust, superbad, american pie 6, etc.somethings that i need to take my mind off this.

and i learnt alot of things. things that are important in life. truth, reality, love, hurt, promises, feelings, commitment, pain, fear, sorrow, care, lies, giving, trying, mistakes, forgiveness, regrets, hope, prayer, faith, trust, believe, accepting, memories, waiting, longing, crying, sadness, and many other things.but deep deep down, i still wish it werent true.

if there is one thing ive learnt througout this one whole year its that "there can be miracles, when you believe." hope, trust, faith are everything. that was my sharing today in the sharing session, anything can happen, you just need to believe and ask, if He doesnt give you what you asked for, he will know and give you whats better for you. and im praying.

its painful, its sad, i never felt this way before. but funny, im still right here waiting.

and happy christmas if i dont get the chance to get online on that day (:

will it?

i hoped, and i still hope that it'll never end.

...

same mistake repeated? sorry..

ahhhh, at home, so slacky!

aniwae, heres my 4 main objective now!
1. dye hair
2. drive and get my license
3. change my phone
4. go with friends somewhere to stay

hahaha, and its really slacky here..
if there is one word to describe, itll be slacky.. :p

ahh, and people wont change no matter how much they try, do they?

goodbye..

for most of us, this is another chapter closed, and yet another another new chapter will be written. the NJC chapter has been closed, army/working/another new study chapter will begin.

too bad but i'll continue writing my NJC chapter :D just that it will be from a different perspective (:

So, here i am! packed and ready to go. (and nail clippers are also packed and im having trouble with my long fingernails and superlong toenails that have been neglected for the past few weeks :p) Ill be offline by around 12pm to take lunch and off to airport to send friends off (:

so the nightmare now is my luggage! it SHOULD be overweight :p my 2 luggages weigh 40+kg already and i still have 2 boxes. i hope people can spare me their space, if not, ill just either return and put my things somewhere or pay the excess or the best way, take out my bags from the boxes and HANDCARRY! :D hahaha..

so how heavy it was? it was over 100kg 0.O so i gotta spread it all over! 2 boxes go to my aunts house, thats like 20+ kg, 1 box and 1 luggage is stored with biondi, thats 30+kg off, one box is with cass, and one bag is with geraldine. its already all over the place! hahaha..

enough of that, i shall worry later :D

nows goodbye to everyone ): but its not goodbye because anyway im coming back here again to work! (: ill see you guys soon (:

and i wont see cassypok because she return tmr

and geraldine returns on 11th

but at least ill see some of my classmates again today (: they are the ones i probably wont see anytime soon.

and some of my scholars friends today too! (:

and of course some of them again in indo.

ill be online! keep in touch yea!

BYEBYE )':

bye

thanks! and byebye.. ill see you again next year (;

with love.
dhika

last day

way to go myself, screw everything up on the last day.

now what..

i seems cant get this right..

im sorry..

gradnite 07

the last event of my jc life has just ended. its quite nice to see my friends for one last time in their best attire and make up before we go to each of our own ways. but sometimes make up, hairdos, and nice outfit can bluff people! there are quite some girls that suddenly look pretty, but we keep reminding ourself, " no, no that is bluff, that is not real" hahahahaha! so, too bad, the real one is when you wear your nj uniform :p

packing and packing, i got a few days left before i go home, and ill go for a choir concert tommorow, geraldine is performing, but too bad i got noone to go with, i go alone ): such a loner.. haha, oh crap. im becoming antisocial.

so, ill post some gradnite pics! just some! (:

BUT it seems like the blogger photo uploader got problem.. shucks.. tommorow try again..

s18: the untold story

im having this weird/uneasy kind of feeling, ill know what is that soon, maybe :p hopefully its not something really bad..

so im here to update! since i have free time now and less stress!

okay first, interview was weird! not exactly an interview, briefing? not exactly, emm, get-to-know session, not also. maybe it was just a short talk :p i feel scared for nothing! hahaa, and weirdly, mr. Jensen Ong never mention anything about accept/reject, he only say "should be no problem" and "please come next week and bring your ic etc etc, ill tell you later the exact date" i assume that as, yes im accepted! haha, so maybe im wrong, but i like to get my hopes high :p

next, NJC 06S18 CLASS CHALET! 27-29 december 2007, ooh it was fun and definitely the most fun class activity that s18 had.. haha, maybe because its the last one we will ever had together! ): haha, but thanks s18! for the 'fun' we had in these whole 2 years.

okay i shall write it in quite details in case i forget the event :p

WARNING: its not for you too read unless you are really interested in the details and have alot of time to spare. HAHA, its for my reference if i ever wanted to recall the wonderful times for my class :D

should be meeting at 12pm, but i decided to be abit late, and wait for christin, cos we might as well go together so i got chat friend for the long journey! turn out she was having date and we went there quite late :p we took off at 530pm, went to city hall mrt with mcarl, and mcarl went to suntec, me and christin went to tampines. took a bus for quite long before we reached changi village for dinner! reached at 730. 2 hrs ride. wow.

there was around 20 ppl there eating, lets see, mingxuan, yihong, jinghao, ernest, chooting, kahyan, amelia, jaime, adeline, tianju, yeechian, zuanling, kaihui, and szeying. did i miss out anyone? haha, ate chicken rice! and walked to the chalet.

quite far, 10-15 minutes walk and we arrive at one relatively big chalet compared to last year, and saw the 3 Is playing xbox. so ppl started playing risk and mahjong, mahjong was full and risk was just boring, so me and christin went to play uno stacko and attempt to break the record! (if there was any.) we reached level 29, no idea what is the record. mingxuan joined us, his finger quite big, his laughter quite uncontrollable and shaky. reached level 27, not bad. :p

then some of us took a stroll to changi village again and went to cheers to snack. bought some drink and food and slippers! :x was a nice slow walk, wished the road was longer. it was fun and with all the chat. good walk! :p chai jing hao was especially scared with anything related to ghost talk.

next, change game, monopoly! quite fun becos i win! haha, traded earliest, get a monopoly and then the weird collusion start coming. the game become quite weird, cos its not played with rules and weird agreements started to show up. it was quite fun though. cos i still win :D MWAHAHAHA.. there was me, christin, jh, yihong, ernest and amelia.

played monopoly till quite late! very late! till 5am o.O, so then i bathed, and went to sleep. oh and sleeping was not so nice though, haha, the couple took one room with double bed, so we're left with 2 rooms, and one girls gang take the other room. so the monopoly players are forced to squeeze in one room! guys on floor and girls on bed. oh but jinghao was on bed too. :p the 3 Is was playing xbox nonstop and the tj and yc was sleeping in the creepy 2nd living room :S so thats the 1st day! think i fell asleep around 6am.

2nd day! was awake because of a msg at 8am. is frm ms khoo! telling me that i have an interview on friday and a good luck wish :D i really thank her for the time and everything! :D THANK YOU! but 8am is too early so i went back to sleep, and it was COLD, i use my jacket to cover my face :p woke up again at 12pm+ and found myself alone in the room, im THE PIG! hahaha.. checked on others, yh and 3Is playing xbox, girls gang dissapear alr (go home i guess, no idea at all) and the others are playing monopoly again! haha.. so i went to brush teeth, and ate some bread for my breakfast. then we decided to go to tampines mall!

30 minutes busride, reached tampines mall at 2pm, went to play timecrisis 2, died first before yihong died not long after me. :p bought enchanted ticket, not me, and go to eat at foodcourt, ate some creepy spicy noodle and went back to arcade! DAYTONA until crazy, haha, and of course the old airplane game and various shooting game. others went in at 4pm, i bought a hitman ticket, played ALONE at the arcade, 440 went to watch hitman ALONE again. haha, too bad, but i watched enchanted alr, and i really wanna watch hitman! so its worth it. movie was OKAY, not as good as expected and was damn short! i came out together with the others, and went straight back home. i mean chalet.

30 minutes of another busride, the painful 30 minutes for some of us and a SUPER painful 30 minutes for jh. took the bus with a bunch of gangster, talk super loud, but too bad they talk in chinese. -.- i dont understand so i just stone. apparently after that i heard that they are being irritating and disturbing us, but who cares eh, i dont understand what they say. but jh was fuming (but maybe scared to death too cos he was sitting beside somoeones girl) HAHAHA.. and i was looking and the person beside me, i mean his handphone! its N95 8GB! exactly the phone that i want! WOAH. crap. and where the hell people like that get their nice phones.

reached chalet, sit down and SHIT! i forgot! haha, i think we played uno stacko again, then change to monopoly, then change to mahjong. it was around 3 when we change to xbox, and amelia and yihong dissapeared into the darkness since around 12am taking their nice slow walk, dont know what happen :S yihong is naughty :p hahahahaha.. then yihong returned, and apparently the 3 Is are asleep! and thats the only chance to play the xbox! so we played!, me, yh, jh, christin, and adeline. haha, then we went to sleep at about 4. this time i sleep in the guys room, still on the floor, and again jh sleep on the bed with girl! oh and the couple leave some space in their bed, but noone wants it, so they take the whole room again. hahaha..

set alarm at 8am, cant hear a single thing, woke up at 10am, find ourself to the end of the chalet, brushed teeth and packed. i thot it was gonna end but actually we're not finished! HAHAHA..

took bus to redhill, went to safra, 8 last people, me, xtin, jh, yh, mx, ct, amelia and adeline! played 3 games of bowling, 45, 96, 95, that was my score. i SUCKED! usually is around 100+ T.T i should practice more. and apparently, the singapore bowling team was practicing beside us, it was: X X X X X X 9/ X X XXX something like that. WOW.

then went to another arcade! an arcade that is so cheap! a flat rate of 50 cents for any games there. wow. and i see jh played parapara for the 1st time. it was, wow. again. hahaha..

surprisingly, we havent finished! went vivo after that for dinner! and we went to MARCHE as suggested by yh. was a joke that is taken seriously by all of us. haha, with our stupid home clothes we went to marche. :D nice food! ate rosti, with coarse pork and a chicken something. ended it with half of the cheesecake shared with xtin, and then comes the fun part! drinking game! all of us drank and keep laughing. nobody is drunk though ( as far as i can see ) and jh was the virgin! haha, first time drink i guess, cant handle much :p coughing and shivering :p after that, then HOME! finally it was finished, and it was a nice memory to keep with me of my class in NJC.

will we have another outing/chalet? ill go :D haha.. :p

done

OOPS! that was quite long! hahaha, im tired, tmr will be gradnite clothes hunt! not much, just shirt i guess, and thats it! :D im tired! and im sleeping soon! good luck for the SAT people tommorow!

rush post!

rush rush, i just finished class chalet! believe it or not, it was fun! :p
i shall talk about it in tmrws post becos im quite tired, yea tired, very tired, (and maybe drunk :p) and i got a very important interview tmr! :S

pray for me / wish me luck! :D hahaha..

off to chalet (:

Im leaving for class chalet soon! hope itll be fun, though i know it wont :p
what is bad about the timing is because TODAY is when HEROES season2 episode10 comes out, and i want to watch it ): so, while my froggy azur**s downloads it ill be off to chalet, i hope my laptop doesnt burn when i return (:

so, byebye, see you people in 3 days! ill be outside the civilisation.
(or maybe ill call it off after 2 days :P)

the expected is unexpected

before A levels finished, i always think that life after As will be so much fun! freedom, no worries at all, nothing to mug, nothing to be scared of..

then i also thought that it will not be THAT fun, it will be boring, and still more things to settle, more work to be done.

BUT i never expect it to be like this! its totally booorriingg, with people taking SAT so they are busy mugging and we cant play in the hostel, PACKING which is such a CRAP! i dont know what to bring home and what not, and i need to find nice boxes to keep my things and peoples house to store my things, i need to find WORK! which is very hard, writing resume, application forms are so troublesome and dont go well with me ): havent got call from NJ for my interview too.. next come the lodging, where am i going to stay if i return here? its so crap! now i got nothing to do, not nothing, i can pack, but no, i dunno how to say this, but i just cant do anything.. hahaha, crap.

yea, life after As SEEMS fun, i dunno what to do now. ): help enlighten me please..

ah crap

ah great, i may not be teaching after all, HAHA.. i just know that accepted means: accepted in the waiting list, till requested by any school or till you apply to any school. yea great, im lazy to go around applying.. haha.. so this is the letter.
yeah crap! so maybe im not coming back that early ):

FREE

OH YES IM FREE! I AM OFFICIALLY FREE!

NO MORE WEARING UNIFORM, NO MORE SCHOOL! ITS OVER!
NO MORE MUGGING TILL LATE! ITS REALLY OVER..
or not..

haha, FINALLY A levels finished, ending my 4 years of education here, but no, it doesnt stop here! i still have a long long way to go!

and it seems that im not going away from school as well! take a look.

Your application for registration as a relief teacher is successful.

As you are a non-citizen, a valid work permit must be obtained prior your assumption of duty. You are required to submit a Letter of Registration, which will be sent to you in due course, together with another letter from the school principal when applying for a work pass. You are only allowed to start work upon receiving your work permit from the Ministry of Manpower.

Please bring along all your original educational certificates, transcripts and the necessary identification document to your first appointing school for the purpose of verification. Schools will not be allowed to employ you if your particulars are not verified.

Uh oh, i guess im accepted, but i start to regret why i apply for secondary school as well, because my friend only applied for JC teaching and he got accepted too. sigh, hope i dont get posted to some weird school. but nevertheless, YEAH I GOT ACCEPTED! thank God. so i guess im coming back here early after all.

and here am i back to school life then! yea, just that in different position :D HAHA. i got to bully the students :p

SO SCHOOLS OUT! what should i do now? life after As seems like no purpose. haha, its not how i imagined it to be. but nevermind! its over, hey its really over :D

to my juniors: yall got 1 or 2 more years to go! it is worth the mugging. REALLY.

to cass: BYE BYE! SEE YOU maybe SOON! (;

2 more. 2 more. 2. 2. 2. still 2 more.

its 2 more, and its done!
timecheck: 1030pm on thursday night, spent the whole day watching heroes. oh tommorows paper? dont worry, its afternoon paper, i got the whole morning.. HAHAHA, crap, no i dont. must start doing papers after this. after all, its just paper 1, mcq, shouldnt be hard after all. nono, never underestimate papers.. (AH SHIT IM TALKING TO MYSELF)

oh, enjoyed the 2 days after econs celebrating.. haha, watched simpsons, ate thai express dinner, GAY dinner, and today waste whole day watching heroes. haha, so enlightening.

and so far, application for teaching is VERY bad. its constantly 'under consideration' since time immemorial and until time memorial. sigh. and on the other hand, theres class to teach when i go back indo. HAHA, COOL IM A TEACHER EH ;) haha, sort of english based maths, physics and chem tuition things. shouldnt be hard right? my english lousy, so does theirs! haha, my singlish affected slang and tone? oh who cares! :p soo, im confused. if im teaching back there, means i wont be back soon. maybe until results come.

oh ya, heroes is nice. nice. but spoilers are bad and irritating. bad and irritating.

guess im gonna do some mcqs now.. T.T pathetic. and to say that As finished yesterday, and here i am worrying and mugging for paper tommorow. wish i was hiro nakamura :p

so, life after As gonna be interesting, i guess. help me make it interesting :D

and if im coming back here late, i gonna miss you all ;p but for sure i WILL return to take my papers alrighty.. (:

oh and to pork: forget? HAHA, NEVER! (; dont you dare!

dhika's method of de-stressing

IM HALFWAY THERE! (:
and that is just so nice to hear (:

5 more, its just 5 more.. :D

so, meanwhile, i just want to upload some crap :p maybe not crap, but all the weird stuffs in my laptop.. its good, good for relaxing and de-stressing :D okay here goes dhika's method of finding something to do when there is actually alot of things to do like studying for your a levels. guaranteed will fill your free time slot, make you more informed, make you smile abit, feel satisfied and most of all have fun. but not guaranteed will help your exam grade after all. :p

Things that you can do to fill up your time - by me

1. decorate your wonderful computer with windowblinds. make that boring desktop colourful :D

HAHA, i love my desktop :D

2. learn how to play guillotine, its fun, and addictive :D

for those who play alr, here are some funny additional cards :D

3. fight the dying fight against xed0.


5. learn how to look at stereograms :D
its a shark, if you can see it :P need help?

6. Practice your two sides of brain by looking at this pics!
(click on the picture!) tell me which direction you see it! (; haha, if you can do both, good good :p the key is on the leg.

7. learn sound mixing and PA stuffs! :D
its good to learn PA skills :D http://www.mediacollege.com/ is the webbie that i go to (:

8. and of course learn PHYSICS!
Fundamental particles, learn the fundamental and youll know all the stuffs (:

9. Spend time working with your best team (:and of course have fun with them too (:

10. and the last one is to spend time with your loved ones (:
YAYY, haha, im dating girl that wears pinafore :x


(11. (extra) or maybe finding cute actor/actress in the internet :p)

hahahaha.. no idea how this pic get into my com though :p

GOOD LUCK FOR REMAINING PAPERS! holiday people, enjoy your holiday to the fullest!
wish me luck for my remaining papers! i really cant wait for this to be over.

week1

this mark the end of week one of A levels, im left with 3 more week to go :\
ah i dont feel like studying :\
i cant wait for holiday and start doing my holiday plan :\

and im sorry if ive dissapointed you..

things on my mind

why university application must go together with A level exams?! So the student can multitask between mugging for as and applying? (researching universities, getting recomendation, finding scholarships, thinking of what degree, deciding universities, finding the watever teacher in nj, deciding of what country to go, how about fees, etc, etc) and damn alot more that i certainly need time to ponder over.

medicine is impossible in Singapore

guess if i really want to take medicine, i must choose other alternatives, next best (currently i know) is Germany.. free education? US and UK is out of question too due to their outstanding fees.. but look at the bright side, if i can enter yale, princeton or harvard, i can study for free! -.- thats not so bright.. haha.. impossible is something.. germany, need to learn the language for another year, and hope that i can master it. Japan, i need to wait another year to apply, another year to do preparation to enter the university (todai?) and if failed the test then too bad. 3 years wasted. China, Peking U (issit?) needa learn chinese. and i dont really WANT to go there. sigh.. taking medicine is so not problematic, cos theres only 1 basic degree, be a GP and then think again.. but my career in medicine seems gloooomy..

if i were to stay in singapore, it will be engineering. what engineering? i have no idea. most likely will be chem E or biomed E (or issit bio E?) hmm, i find it interesting to clone or to grow embryos.. :p mechanical E is always an option too (physics!) and so is computer engineering (my lifelong, currently suspended hobby). electrical engineering sounds not so bad too. haha, thats like just listing.

Other choice will be science degree, but singapore's science, i dont quite trust it so much :p US is the best for science and best for excorting money too. go france or germany again, go work at CERN and take science.. maybe, MAYBE i can find the long awaited higgs boson eh? :p ill be a nobel laurrete ( how to spell that?) and ill be wise not to be racist like.. uh forgot the name.. james something?

my choice is quite limited though.. SMU is out of question cause business and management and law is just not my field. i do like econs, but not for my life.

obviously not language

medicine T.T

engineering?

uh shit. and just to inform the J1s or IPs who wish to apply for overseas through nj, do it early, fast dont wait till the deadline or what. im just stuck in a point that cant do anything else. UK and aussie application had closed. left with US. wait another year to apply? wasted one year of this short life.

gonna find out everything about all this, AFTER As! oh i just cant multitask.. and also thinking whether i should take SAT this december 1st. should i? deadline for application is 30 oct. please give me enlightenment. i need SAT for US and SMU. not my choice, but who knows if something happen? :p

and no, going into a university that is not recognised is not an option. i dont want to waste the year i wasted here just to go back to my old stuck state. i will go somewhere that the old me cant reach.. :p

sigh and its 3 something now. As in 2 days time, i still havent repair my body clock. maybe i should become an engineer :p or a doctor :p both can repair my body clock..

i wonder

why is it so hard for guys to understand girls.

but i say is even harder for girls to understand guys.

whats wrong with learning from the experienced people. i should learn again.

but it takes 2 hands to clap.

1 more month!

or more or less..

and ill be free :D at least for some months ahead.. ill then got another trouble of applying university and finding work. sigh, what a stressful life.

so, as exam nearing, my mugger adrenaline increased and i gradually mugged more! this is good, i know that my peak is during the exam time itself.. for my advantage, theres a lot of empty days between papers! haha, GP is still killer, done 1 comprehension paper today and got a slap on the cheek by the answer sheet.

its like 25 more days before it is ending (and like 4 more days before it starts :S) but better don't count the starting day because it will be scaring the shit out of me.. so, i saw this GIF at my friends blog, and also someone sent this to my email.. its (friday, saturday, sunday, monday, tuesday) 5 more days before exam!

New school semester:


At the first week:


At the second week:


Before the mid-term test:


During the mid-term test:


After the mid-term test:


Before the final exam:


Once know the final exam schedule:


7 days before final exam:


6 days before final exam:


5 days before final exam: <-- current status!


4 days before final exam:


3 days before final exam:


2 days before final exam:


1 day before final exam:


A night before final exam:


1 hour before final exam:


During the final exam:


Once walk out from the exam hall:


After the final exam, during the holiday:


cute..

not very correct timing

ah.. sorry have not been updating :p the internet just refused to go to blogger and really take damn long to open the page.. haha, yep and its like 8 more days to A level, i just dont feel it.

i think its a very wrong decision to put prelim just before As just like it was before Os. Why not just As with no prelim? i always peaked at prelim, like in Os, and more or less reduced abit in the actual one, which is Os. and i hope that it doesnt happen again. i must get the best to be able to continue to pursue my education :D

AHH, it has been boring since then cos i also no mood to mug.. this weekend never mug at all, friday went with pa as a fake pa crew to the cest la vi3. was super fun. saturday spent the whole day from i wake up, 12pm till i sleep 1am to play Heroes 5 - The Hammers of Fate :p with wh, finished one and abit more campaign.. sunday went church, went cineleisure to take my anti 0d3x shirt, meet the guy who order the shirt, he is the national champion for halo 3 which play wcg this year. i decided to watch him awhile when he play with another guy, completely GODLIKE pro shit. he totally thrashed the other guy and still play play summore.. haha, fun.. go back home, do laundry, watch shrek 3, thats my day :p

shit i really gotta study :p and aniwae today, monday, went school to do work and as expected i can do work better in school than in hostel. infinite times better efficiency. that still doesnt mean i do alot of work ):

yep and i gonna talk about last friday at cest la vi3 with pa! it was so fun :D staying there before event start, overlooking everything, standing outside hall control and looking at the concert, eating pizza inside hall control together, went down and hang around with the crew during the concert, it was a travel back through time.. and i just remembered everything that we, as a crew and as a family had gone together. remembered all the late night events, when after events everyone will be high and walking out the school with so much fun together through the dark main gate. sometimes supper together and it really is my best time in NJ. after late events, packing up, overlooking the empty dark hall from the corridor, ah i miss those times. during the concert, we went down and see the shops, we found a cheap spongebob monopoly and that reminds me of the illegal camps we gone through, when we go out to queensway to buy cloth or whatever, elain helped me buy some bacardi to bring to the school, walking out together at night, going to the school at night from main gate. all the illegal stayovers are just so fun and its the best way to appreciate nj building. its like my own home. which toilet is the best one, for bathing, for doing your business :P ahh, walking around the school at night like it is your own house. jumping down from hall control to open the hall and play badminton :p its just simply the best of times. i myself forget already how many times we had illegal stayovers, 5 times? maybe? or more.. before june camp all the illegal stayover with 'training manual' reasons, staying up late with ivan to be stucked on our laptop to write our parts for the manual and then share through msn, playing twisters, guillotine, and everything together in the small and cosy hall control. ah, i just missed those times alot. maybe more than you cass :p and im really grateful for being able to be a pa crew. oops, my expression all like shit.

too many moments that are too beautiful to be written, let it just be sweet memories in my heart.

i totally miss you guys njpa06/07

for cass and mel,
hey you two, should be grateful that you still got 2 more years to spend with PA. look at your seniors, so poor thing cant even enjoy being able to be a pa crew anymore. remember all the times as a crew, running to provide help, helping teachers during lectures, solving problems, giving information and suggestion, saving an event, and all the fun times. remember all the times as one family, slacking at control, playing, laughing and joking, all the sad times we had together, all the happy times, the busy times and the slack times, the eager new pa crew time and the we-are-old-senior-must-teach-junior times, and all other times even not in pa that we spend together with pa people. im sure things going to get better with your help. and dont worry, the seniors are always supporting (: so, just do your best, cheer up, dont just see the bad things, see the good things and also remember how pa become so much of your family, im sure yall not going to give up on pa (: you just love it too much you forgot about it :p so jiayou! yall can do it (:

whos sick?

yay, i think im fully healthy already. but just in case, i must still sleep more :D
haha, but the flip side is that now my roomate and another person who lives beside my room kena fever also, and i think they should blame.. umm.. the weather? :p
haha, sorry hor..

last day of schoolING today, no more school (maybe), i hope not, but nevermind. haha, lucky today the video presentation dont have pa, if not sure very malu-ing :D hahaha.. and maths department was hillarious, young at heart. haha, realised got econs consultation quite late, ask some really shitty question im sure he will give sarcastic remarks if there is still another econs class, but sadly, no more.

so, officially 2 weeks before A levels! hurry come hurry-er go. i need to mug. please. oi.

not the right time

or maybe it is the right time to fall sick? lucky As not yet start..

dizzy, cold, cough, stomachache, sleepy, lazy, lethargic, no muscle control.

hope all be gone in 3 days time :D hahaha..

stop

no more arguments. you may take it as youre right, im wrong. no ones perfect, we make mistakes, if u want everybody to be as good as you, at least im not. i dont wish to talk about this further, even in the first place. you think i dont know how does it feel when dont dare to go into hall control? i know too. but thats not it, youre right, im not good in what i do, so i wont argue more about that. im just not going to sit back if someone talk about pa with contempt. yes you are right.

draft it shall be.

need help here..

HAHA.. im back here again..
cos i need help ): i cant seem to start mugging again after prelim eventhough i am fully aware that As are coming.. (or issit that mugging have been my natural activity, like breathing, until i din even realise im mugging? but i realise im breathing :/) nevermind.. nonsense aside.. haha, i really cant seem to mug.. and i need help ):

okay, but before that there are some recent things i want to write about 1st.. yesterday i saw a snake at NJ! mwahaha, so shockingly funny and amusing.. scared me, and lucky me :P cos i saw ppl coming in from the hill beside the sidegate when the sidegate is closed. i suspect theres a hole somewhere on the fence so that people can come in from there.. when i investigate around, what i found is not a hole, but a snake on the barbed wire looking at me :x hahaha.. scary.. i managed to take a photo of it with my friends camera, but haven got it from him.. this is the lousy version of the photo (:look at the lowest barbed wire, you should be able to notice a super long this green snake.. hahaha.. this was taken using my lousy vga camera phone.. later i upload the one taken with a good quality sony cybershot phone :D

and another thing, yesterday i didnt play badminton ): simply because of the stupid security guard that dont like us (or probably only me, sorry guys). suck up the teacher in charge of the place and din let us to go in.. the story goes like this.. me and the usual guys come at the hwachong hall, saw alot ppl there but the hall is still locked, we saw the door is unlocked, and just go in lah (the door is unlocked what -.-). the next thing we know, the uncle security come in, tell us to go out, cos the teacher booking.. so we nicely stop playing and go out.. wait for the teacher to come, and share courts with them, as usually what we do every friday.. but this stupid security guard told us to go back, we ask why? usually we can play with the teachers. the reply is, 'today too many people, so you go back' F*CK! then i said, others not going back, they waiting, so we also wait lah, he stare at us and instruct us to go back.. WTF, so HE IRRITATED ME and as a very easily irritated guy i also become irritated and not actually rude, i actually didn do anything.. finally the teacher come, ask the reason why he dont allow everybody to go in, the security guard scared, he dont have any reason to support his action not letting anybody in, then he blacksheep-ed us, say we are rude, he dont mind the others going in, except us, cos we are very rude to him.. F*CKING SUCKER UP.. and uncle you just watch out, you are going to lose your job, i warn you.. F*CKER GO TO HELL.. shit.. shit.. im angry again becos of writing this.. yesterday like want to kill people already.. maybe some complain letters that he molested hw**hong boys will help me do the job :D suck up like little girl that we are rude to him, hide behind the teacher and point at us like little girl.. sucker.. OH, and the teachers wife, easy to be sucked up, say something to us in chinese, we said we dont understand chinese, SHE LAUGH AND SAID "dont understand then dont need to complain la, go back" F*CK, she cant even speak clear english, sure from some inland shit, shit, cant speak english you go and eat your fart.. shit.. oh okay im shitted.. my blood boiling.. and i can get sued with my bad languages here.. hahahaha..

okay enough..

sorry for the bad words if it bothers you who read, really sorry.. just so pissed off like i never before in this whole year, maybe years.. sorry, just give me one post to shit all this out, and uncle and auntie watch out..

oh ya, ill be changing my password a few days later, it'll be 'jahja' :D hahaha..

idea no

hmm, haven updated in awhile, haha, after got complain then i update lor.. :P
just that no mood to do anything, nothing at all, summore no school, no nothing.. sigh, just bcos of that one day and one night spent with my family, i feel like no burden at all, life's so well, slacky slacky shopping spree and eating spree.. after i got thrown back into my hostel room, its all gloomy, gloomy, lots-of-work-to-do-but-dunno-what-to-do, and also dont want to do and no mood to do, i even lose my appetite.. sigh.. i hope i can get back on track soon, if ure able to help, please do :P

haha, enough of complaining. since i got no mood to do anything, my usual hobby of watching movie kicked in again. yesterday sudden urge to watch, 15 minutes decision, cabbed to cine, catched RE extinction, cabbed back, played some texas holdem :p then sleep.. today, watched knocked up and evan almighty. all the movies are nice eh, or maybe its just pre and post exam combined effect.. oh and i wanna watch lust, caution by lee ang, although its nc16 but nevermind i shall still take the lousy version and wait for the uncut version. haha, so who want to watch with me? :p

okay okay, maybe i should get back to mugging, but i need a push, or do i? heck, lets live with life first.. maybe somemore movies :D oh and ive been abit not in touch with people :/ sigh, i cant even think of anything, blank mind, dunno what to do. shit even typing nonsense.. haha..

darn it. if only A level finished today..

weird wednesday..

hooo.. im so relieved i got an E for GP.. yeah.. not good, but not bad :P
so im overall pass! :P

haha, my dad returns today ):
and my mom coming tmr :/
so weird..
aiya, i wont go see thoem so often again la, waste my mugging time :x
hahaha, mug mug..
shall switch back to mugging mode, SOON!
my grandpa is out of hospital :D
hahahaha..

SO, PA CHALET is at 30 nov - 2 dec.. i hope it wont be cancelled!!!!!! :D come and support leh! haha.. but so sad my two juniors wont be able to come ): it is the same as not having any juniors coming.. haha, and if only juniors coming hor, i wont come already :\ hahaha.. aiyah, better confirm first.. haha, it will be best if its postponed to january though :D haha, maybe..

and since i met my grandparents, they teach me how to write my name again! and i found out the one cass write for me is wrong! haha, sorry sorryy..

so here goes :Dim a chinese! my handwriting not so bad hor ;D hahahaha..

meet the fockers :D

today was so worth ponning school! hahaha.. catched balls of fury with geraldine (: in the morning and then go and meet my family :D hahaha.. sounds quite funny, no connection..

It was abit weird, cos i speak indo, english, my dad and uncle speak indo, bad english, and my yeye and nai nai speak indo, chinese, and YOU speak english and chinese! haha, so hard to talk, we keep changing translator :P hahahaha.. nevermind it was fun! thank you for coming today! :D oh btw, i think my mom coming thursday night cos my dad returning tmr evening.. my grandpa coming out of hospital tmr, but need to stay for further checkup for 2-3 weeks and they cant stay alone.. (my mom is the most irritating one among others, hahaa, she will ask stupid questions -.-)

nevertheless, it was a fun day :D and i will upload photos when i get the photos :D

haha, you be happy, dont keep worrying over things that you shouldnt worry so much.. enjoy your life after promos, dont be a mugger now, wrong timing xP

okay.. i finished my testimonial, with full of grammatical error, expression mistakes, no spelling mistakes (cos msword mah :P) and everything ): tmr getting back GP, the sure die paper.. ah i so hope GP can burn in hell, ive got my best marks until now, and the stupid darn GP will screw my result slip T.T i predicted 'aaabU' T.T spoil market..

so, tmr i wont pon lah :P and its 3 last days of school, will make the best out of it (like real). last 3 days being with my divided class and i going to enjoy it while i still can :D i will certainly miss sleeping in class, especially maths (when mr tsang wont care even if you snore) and also chem (when ms sim will shoot you with questions the moment your eyelids are close enough to cause td-id interaction)

hahaha, bought a wallet for my bro! he was emm..2007-1995=12 years old :D this 29 september :D

ah i forgot, my mom coming how am i going to study T.T

ALL THE BEST FOR J1 SPA TOMMOROW!
ALL THE BEST FOR IP EOM TOMMOROW-FRIDAY
ALL THE BEST FOR J2 emm.. actually nothing yet.. :D

facebook is quite/so fun! :p

haha, i still wanna be a doctor ): but i must be realistic..

wah super random..

a happy post (:

hello (:
ahh, im thinking about alot of things.. alot alot of things is suddenly popping out.. testimonial, university application, A levels.. hahaha, of course not suddenly, but sudden.. :x
today my roommate went to the overseas uni talk and ask me to apply with him, WAH ALOT OF THINGS TO DO.. get teacher recomendation, see kevin sim, take SAT, write essay, etc, etc, it discourages me from applying.. sigh.. but i heard quite alot from nj is accepted to US.. hmm.. but my current choice now is to stay here, but i also want to pursue a medicine degree, hmm, stay here means no medicine degree T.T ahh.. darn it.. shall not think of this now..

SO, what else to say, oh ya, my dad and my grandparents seem to be staying till friday :D his eye should heal on friday i suppose :/

And YESTERDAY was a fun day with PA :D my other family.. celebrate CASS and JIALIN's birthday (: a surprise that is totally not surprise and flopped till cant go worse already.. hahaha.. but still the feeling of togetherness is whats important.. right? cos were a family :D hahahaha.. so, i want more outing.. and more chalets.. and more everything.. :D go join the group 'NJPA past present future' created by xinming in facebook :D

and my form teacher, GLEE, shared his way of mugging before As, and i shall share it with you too :D
1. NEVER work alone, always find a friend to mug with, better with a group.
2. by now DONT STUDY CONTENT, you should be doing papers
3. do 3 papers a day.. paper 1, 2, and 3 each counted as 1 paper..
4. FOOD: cut down on PROTEIN increase consumption of CARBOHYDRATES, eat more COMPLEX SUGAR (papaya, grape, cherry, strawberry)
5. SLEEP before 11pm
6. daily EXERCISE
7. lots of WATER

haha, i kinda not agree with number 2 though, cos how to do paper if havent learn content.. dont assume everybody so mugger that they know their content alr la.. but i so so agree with number 6, means badminton everyday xD hahaha..

and tmr i gonna PON sch cos sch sucks :P

now photos of yesterday (:

our small and cosy family (:

the cake chosen by lim yihong?

the two couple mugging together xP

the shy meow :P

and the unglam frog..

PEACE! :D and good luck for EOM!

okay phew..
blogger still got think of ppl like me and saved my template.. OK GOOD.. now back to work (:

WTFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF!
i know i shldnt had tried it here ):
darn it, my wonderful handmade skin gone )':
and i got no time to create it again..
T.T

my grandpa

quite long never update.. so today im going to update (:
thursday night my dad suddenly msg me that he coming tommorow :/ haha, so i met and will meet them on friday, today, and tommorow! (: so long never see them, 9 months? haha, and my grandparents and my uncle are here too!
they come cos my grandpa's eye got something wrong, yep, i pray that everything is okay for him (:
haha, cos my grandpa very nice one :D
after his catarac (is the spelling correct?) operation, now got other problem coming ): hmm, but im sure the doctors can handle! thats why i wanna be a doctor :D
haha, i dunno why i jump jump here and there but nevermind..

soo, tmr will be a PA mugging day :D yay, finally got to be together with my OTHER family again (:

and prelims result till now had been heartwarming, except, of course, GP..

hahaha, so i think i gonna do something fun with this blog (: tweak it abit (: see the result later :D

boys!

omg, now i know why HW_ CH_NG boys are called boys!! pissed the hell out of me darn it... oh sh_t, i dont want to elaborate, it will make my head hurts with all the thoughts of punching them straight on their stupid face.. darn you boys spoil my day.. you small immature boys..

ah, nevermind, today is a nice slacky day.. wake up at 130 :D slack around till 5, went simlim and bugis junction (to find PRESENT! ;p) but cant find, so maybe i dont give :D hahaha.. then rush back to play badminton but then met the stupid boys..

ahh, so, stupid facebook have caught my attention, and weird people did weird things ;p it was quite fun though :D

so, thats all for today :D tmr going to go out again (i think) since i just finished my PRELIMS :D haha, oh shit, i only ate one meal for today :/ and its instant noodle.. okay ill eat another one after this.. :D

as usual, family guy! :D

bye prelims, hello holiday

PRELIMINARY EXAM is over..
finally.. go go dhika, one more exam to go.. the biggest one.. hahaha..

yay, i need to destress and celebrate the mark of the end of prelim (: haha, see i haven sleep arnd this time, still playing :P wanna play play and play cos i know soon will be back to mugging till the end of the month, and half of the next month..

so, physics p1 and p2 were today, p1 was okay, p2 was easy everybody will get A! ahaha, so no comparative advantage.. hahaha, nvm.. get back paper 3, was quite shocked to get back the paper that fast.. never been that fast before.. haha, get below expected, sigh, think cant be relief teacher alr.. hahahah..

then bowl with pa.. plus jinghao.. haha, arcade too, bowl 4 games, play lan, enough.. hahaha.. good good, i miss times with pa ppl, altho today was only some of them..

will spend this whole weekend playing my ass off.. :D then help you to mug for promos (: jiayou..

tommorow is badminton day, no more 2 hrs of badminton cos need to mug.. tmr will be 6 hrs!! hahaha.. shit..

so, guess that the prelim is over, i can rewatch my family guy all the 5 seasons :P hahaha.. enjoy (;

2am

its exactly 2 am in the morning now :/
and tmrw (today) is the last prelim paper, end the prelim with the opening subject! physics! yep, last year paper was tough, hopefully not this year :D
so again, enjoy peter griffin (: goodnight..

the end of a start

its the ending of the prelims! and the start of promos..
so, good luck j1s! you too! good good luck for the promos yeah?

and yes yes is another 2 days before everythings done.. tommorow will be the last day of studying for this prelim! haha.. i cant wait, i cant wait.. good luck!

and i want pa outing! haha, i miss pa outing, somebody organise please (: haha, ill help if needed..

just to entertain ya'll from the upcoming tests, watch this!

its a clip from the funniest cartoon ever! family guy! and of course, its from america.. haha, no wonder the movie so stupid.. haha, a must watch for everybody (above age) ;p hopefully yall enjoy this (:

enjoy (:



will post more family guy clips (:

slacky sunday afternoon..

haha, for ppl who take h2 econs, good luck for tommorow while i can slack the whole day! :D eh, i mean, study chem the whole day T.T
derstand..
went to church today :D met joli the stickwoman, lucky if not ill be alone cos ryan and darius went to church earlier in the morning to look at ________.. nevermind.. hahaha.. okay i must go back to physics soon.. hows it going eh the inverted bungee jump? tell me.. haha..

OH YA.. thursday, after physics paper 1 and 2 for the j2s, there should be an outing organised by YIHONG! haha, its paa outing (: so feel free to come.. he said wan to bowl and something, u go ask him yourself..

ah, tired.. haha, btw pa blog the tagboard, got one tag very sarcastic hor.. ahaha.. very insencere.. mwahahaha..

back, oh back to my dreaded mugging session.. ):

TAG BACK!

hahaha, due to a demand from a weird person i shall do this again.. haha, still say i bias!

Answer the following questions:
1. The person who tag you is?
cassypok

2. Your relationship with him is:
nice senior- nice junior :D haha..

3. Your 5 impressions of him:
1. small
2. immature :P
3. crazy/weird
4. scaredy cat (when it comes to ghost movie):P
5. and no, not fat! hahahaha..

4.The most memorable thing she has done for you?
accompany me when i left my handphone in sch :D

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
ME TOO!!!OMG i love pa like crazy now..(haha, can you remember when is this? :P)

6. if she becomes your lover, you will?
HAHAHAHA.. laugh..-.-

7. if she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
-.-

8. if she becomes your enemy, you will?
show her some ghost stuffs..

9. if she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
if she betray my trust! hahaha..

10. the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
make her love pa as much as before :D

11. your overall impression of him/her is
-.-

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?
the rest of the answer will be the same :D hahahaha..

HAHAHAHA.. SEE HOW NICE I AM -.- still say i bias i kill you.. hahaha.. :D
aniwae, good luck and all the best in ur efforts!!

PA ):

i feel like writing (:

haha, i miss PA badlllllly.. and all i hear about PA now is not-good.. sigh.. and complains from seniors and juniors too.. and members of nj too! haha, i think no pa juniors go here right? so its safe if i write here :D hahaha..

for the new batch, the problem comes earlier than our batch :D yay, means we are not-so-bad lor.. haha, and i dont know whether they can realise that there is actually a problem or they will neglect it.. sigh.. i hope it dont change to something i dont know about..

and seems like the fear has come, the one we have always feared.. haha.. last yr we realised it quite early, and did something to make it better. although there are some things we did quite late, failed to do, and fail to settle somethings, but we did what we are supposed to do for the cca, and to keep the cca as a warm family for everybody in this family. seems like were quite successful (: though with bumps on the road, some of which we ourself couldnt overcome..

and for the president :D dont keep saying u did a bad job.. haha, i just actually realise that without you in the cca, the excos will not be able to see the crucial problems of the cca.. segregation, exco non exco, welfare, ppl who dont want to come animore.. really, without you, we wont realise all that (and end up like the situation now). so really, it was a great job done (: haha, although i still dont like that your particular one decision, but haha! overall, we have done a good job eh? haha..

for the survivors in the current PA, jiayou! dont give up and keep the family alive.. cos the seniors would want to come back to the family they had known.. and for the penghulu -.- youre not doing a real bad job eh, ure just too occupied with other problems that is more severe.. haahaha.. settle it one by one yeah (: for the old flames :D all the best in doing what you think is right (: dont be afraid to speak up now, or before its too late and all tension built up.. solve the problem, dont run away from it (:

for the seniors, i hope we will still support the current batch and the next batches to come, no matter whats the standard, the quality, the similarity, the differences or anything.. dont look down, criticize to improve :D hahaha, and never lose the family bond (: next year we all must come and rampage the camps :D

ah, im done for ranting about PA :D all the best eh crews (: cos we're the best crew :D

so, should be back to mugging, but no mood.. haha, nevermind, i shall do some research for my teachings first ;D then i will be able to answerr :D

jiayou j2s for your PRELIM! haha, and As also! and IPs for your year end? like not so important hor :P hahaha..

and jiayou for your promos yeah? cant wait till the end of the papers (:

so, hopefully i can continue to study later :D

should we expect more than what we give
or should we give more than we expect to get

1st week (:

1st week of prelims just over! time to relax.. one day only, one day with no mugging (:
aniwae just watched 28 weeks later.. now i want to watch 28 days later.. haha..
chem paper 3 was okay lor, that goes as well to econs, and maths was easier, physics around the same as chem. haha, err saw the question wrongly for econs 25 mark essay, never finish chem paper, never finish maths, never finish physics, and never finish econs.. haha, my time management sucks.. or so did everyone elses. :P

tmr is badminton day! hopefully can play tmr..

next week, monday NO PAPER, tuesday maths, wednesday chem, thursday physics! and its done! then the waiting for the final exam will come :S

A levels will start at 30 oct, finish at 20 nov.. and after that.. ahh. ahh, i cant imagine.. hahahaha.. (: but dunno who run away at 19 nov hor stupid. haha, dont forget my BELATED birthday present (: haha.. ill find you to take when i return to singapore :D

PA chalet at 3rd week of december, ill be back at indo ): but nevermind, cos last year also liddat.. haha, still got next year. PAA wont die so fast, dont be so happy.. haha, and njpa hav changed alot quite lately, new equipments, new method, and new ways of doing things :S i prefer my old ways :D hahaha.. oops i sound like ivan..

Got class chalet somewhere in november? i think so.. yayyy.. haha, last event with the class, the divided but together class.. not bad lah.. (: ill miss you all 06S18! haha, some weird class..

and i cant wait for next year! working, getting a level result, working, applying university, hopefully another scholarship, if not loan, anything also can (: and go uni! haha, hopefully not NTU, i wont understand a single thing coming out from the lecturer there.. :P

and ill miss PA so much, the people i mean.. and ill keep coming back next year! dont care whether the juniors allow or not, whether they happy or not.. haha, ill keep coming back cos PA was my family and is my family.. ill find and hunt my batch people (: PAA! :D

oops, talk so much, HAVEN EVEN FINISHED PRELIM -.- haha, okay okay.. back to my hibernation period (:

ohh, and today i heard a good news.. pheww.. yayy.. haha.. saved my life..

ECONNNNNNSSSSSSSSS! will do till hand cram! (:
ah, suddenly. suddenly im in a foul mood.

PHYSICS! HERE I COMEETHHH... (:

hahahaha, see i got continue the tag :D
i just finished reading my econs notes, only reading notes not yet do anything else :x but since monday is physics and i haven touch physics for this holiday, i shall start soon. but i guess this will do for a smooth transition between econs and physics :D

List out your top 5 birthday presents you wish for:
by the time my birthday comes, i want:
1. to receive a good a level cert (:
2. to get a scholarship to NUS or somewhere better
3. to get a good job with a good pay
4. to stay happy with.. you!
5. most importantly, for everything to stay as per normal.. (you know what i mean :P)

Answer the following questions:

1. The person who tag you is?
geraldine (:

2. Your relationship with her is:
boy-girl-friend :$

3. Your 5 impressions of her:
1. sweet (:
2. preety (;
3. caring ;D
4. lovable xD
5. childish :P

4. The most memorable thing she had done for you?
of course i wont write it here (:

5. The most memorable words she had said to you?
neither this too..

6. if she becomes your lover, you will?
she already is :X how to answer :P happy i guess :\ haha..

7. if he/she becomes your lover, things he/she has to improve on will be?
nothing! :P maybe more self confident xP

8. if he/she becomes your enemy, you will?
err.. apologise and make up? (:

9. if he/she becomes your enemy, the reason will be?
the reason will be that we are playing some role playing games that require her to be my enemy :P hahaha, lame..

10. the most desire thing you want to do for him/her now is?
celebrate her birthday together with her..

11. your overall impression of him/her is?
sometimes mature, but sometimes childish xP

12. How do you think people around you will feel about you?
of course feel good lah :P

13. the character you love of yourself is?
everything yay! -.-

14. on the contrary, the character you hate of yourself is?
no self control :\ and the fact that i havent finish studying for prelims and As T.T

15. the most ideal person you want to be is?
noone.. except the one in the bible (:

16. for people that care and like you, say something to them.
maybe you dont know, but i care and like you too! ;p hahaha..

17. pass this quiz to 10 person that you wish to know how they feel about you.
i guess i just type whoever i think went into this place before :D
1. geraldine! tag back :P
2. cass :D
3. mingxuan
4. yihong
5. jinghao
(one of these 3 should be the mysterious one :P)
6. shihui
7. elaine
8. nina
(end of the list, i still need 2 more)
9. wenhao
10. ryan

who is no.6 having relationship with?
hmm, i dont really know :\

Is no.9 a male or female?
both! (:

If no.7 and 10 are together, will it be a good thing?
haha, dont think so, someone will be angry ;p eh no, some-two will be angry..

How bout no.8 and 5?
will have no connection.. :P

What is no.2 studying about?
IP subjects! haha, maths, bio, physics, chem, MI, econs, what else?

When was the last time you had a chat with no.3?
should be last friday.. yes.. haha..

What kind of music band does no.8 like?
i think should be CO music :P or chinese music..

Does no.1 has any siblings ?
3! (: at least thats what she told me :P

Will you woo no.3 ?
no! even if im a girl! :p hahaha..

How about no.7 ?
haha, i guess now my answer will be no.. :P

Is no.4 single ?
no. haha, 1 real girlfriend, but alot other girlfriends :P

What is the surname of no.5?
chai

What is the nickname of no.10?
oe.. haha..

What is the hobby of no.4?
hmm, maybe soccer, badminton, xbox, para paraing, shooting, band-ing.. haha..

Do no.5 and 9 get along well?
haha, no idea..

Where is no.2 studying at?
NJC IP.. :P

Talk something casually about no.1?
err.. casually? emm, she is in 07s10, njc, basketball and western dance.. emm, she is a singer too, she can do alot of things (: haha, she is abit mad, weird.. haha, maybe not abit.. :P she is fun, most of the times (: haha.. i guess thats enough right?

Have you try developing feelings for no.8?
haha, maybe! i forgot :P

Where does no.9 live at?
beside me! or precisely beside my room :P

What color does no.4 like?
dunno. yellow for solaris?

Are no.5 and 1 best friends?
hahaha, dont think so!

Does no.7 likes no.2?
hmm, how should i say this, i dont this i should write it here :D hahahaha.. oops..

How do you get to know no.2?
she was the smallest girl on my 1st pa orientation group! hahaa, then i know her there i think.. but i guess she doesnt know me there.. hahaha..

Does no.1 have any pets?
yep a dog..

Is no.7 the sexiest person in the world?
this question is best asked to ivan :P

hahahaha, shit, gotta do physics then! :P

Y loves.

lyrics

Yeah I know it hurts, Yeah I know you're scared walking down the road that leads to who knows where. Don't you hang your
head don't you give up yet when courage starts to disappear I will be right here.

[Chorus:]

When your world breaks down and the voices tell you turn around. When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you.
When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes. When you're falling behind, I will carry you.

Everybody cries, Everybody bleeds, No one ever said that lifes an easy thing. Thats the beauty of it, when you lose your
way, close your eyes and go to sleep and wake up to another day.

[Chorus]

You should know now that you're not alone. Take my heart and we will find, you will find, your way home.

When your dreams give out I will carry you, carry you. When the stars go blind and the darkness starts to flood your eyes.
When you're falling behind, I will carry you, carry you, I will carry you, carry you, I will carry you, carry you, I will
carry you.

Lenz's law - For a current induced in a conductor, the current flows in such a direction that its own magnetic field opposes the change that produced it.
Le Chatelier's principle - If a chemical system at equilibrium experiences a change in concentration, temperature, volume, or total pressure; the equilibrium will shift in order to partially counter-act the imposed change

green with envy, red with jealousy.

I guess in life, all things have the nature of resisting change. when people give you plenty, you asked for less, when they give you less, you ask for more. i wish i could turn back time and undo all these.

yesterday was teachers day, a very happy day for me, with a very bitter ending. i really enjoyed being with you the whole day, i thought everything was fine and we can start again. i guess im just naive. things changed and it is not as easy as saying we will start new. everything is different now.

i guess there were times where things were different. and i wasted all my chance. and this is all i have now. i just have to stop being selfish and start to accept things as it is. if you can, why cant i?

i guess there were times when you feel exactly what im feeling now. and maybe im feeling what you are feeling. but there were times too where we felt the exact same thing. the love, the need for one another, and all the time we had for each other. i miss those times. but i guess things do change. and maybe its for the better. i dont know.

there were also times where all revolve around us. or maybe around me. everyday i see your messages, your friendster comments, your tags, your call.. i really miss all those. but it really is my fault that i neglected those. there were times where i didnt event reply your comment, your messages and all.

i miss the times where you call me everytime you could. i miss the times where i see your message everyday and everytime. i miss you calling me when im playing badminton. miss the times where you want to meet me as often as you can. miss the times where we always find each other at school. especially miss the times when you really need me.

there were times too, when i always find hidden sentences or words in your blog, that makes me feel happy and important. especially after we had a wonderful day, ill always go to your blog and wait for your updates and things that make me smile cause i know that i am important for you. but there were times, when i dont write about you here, and i guess its time for you to not write about me.

when i went into my cave, i told you to find your own cave for the time. im just being selfish. but sometimes i do need time alone and with my friends, and the other time, i just need you and only you. i guess when i took that break everything changed. you get used to being without me, not needing me, not depending on me and all. where what i used to want was some time off. but i guess i sorta put it wrongly and made you learn to be more independent. or too independent. but i guess you feel that the current situation is better. since you are already used to it.

when i returned from my cave, i dont find you there anymore.

i hope that, like me, it is just time that made you feel you dont need me as much as you did. but it seems like a slim chance cause it is a different case for you and me. for me, it was just a need to pull away. but for you, i think everything was changed and in fact you dont need me to be there for you, you can already stand with your own foot. you dont need me to carry you anymore. maybe its good for you. maybe thats what you always wanted.

if that is the case, i hope that one day when you feel tired of standing by yourself, you'll let me carry you again. i just want you to know that being able to stand yourself doesnt mean you dont need other people to carry you. and i hope, someday ill have the chance again.

now that im just one of the people you love, i miss being the only one. but dont mind that, i cant be selfish, and i wont. anyway, in the first place, i asked for this. im glad that you find people that you love now. i guess ill just have to share with them.

im sorry for causing you all these troubles, to make you used for being without me, not needing me and now im asking for you to need me again. but no, i shouldnt, its no more about me. you got your classmates, your cca mates, and your other many friends to take care off too. i hope there is still a little space left for me, and i hope there is still a part of you, even small, that needs me, that clings on me, that loves me as much as you used to.

or perhaps, now its my turn to change and get used being without you and not being needed by you. its my turn to change to someone who accept things without asking for so much when giving nothing in return. its my turn to get used to all these. and maybe, not needing you so much too.

i guess, i just miss those times when we really need each other and cant do without one another.

i guess i have to get used to not being the one
and learn to accept that im only one of them.

i guess its just selfish for me to want you to need me all the time.

im a fool.. :\

Tommorow is GP prelim.. sigh..

GP is the subject that i am weakest at, and medicine MINIMUM requirement is a B grade for GP. Im not saying that im still looking forward to medicine, but at least the idea and the want is still on my mind. sigh.. i cant help to wish that my GP grade is better and same goes to my language.. AHH.. moreover, talked about choosing subject with pork just now about bio or physics and i guess i chose physics last time because NUS medicine course doenst require bio; overseas medicine courses requires physics. The idea of going overseas AGAIN seems so fun and yet troublesome. i rather stay at singapore. so, back to studying GP again now, not to get B, but just to pass. oh btw, pork! glad that you have the interest and the ambition to take medicine! and im sure you can make it, oh please, IP leh! :P so work hard towards it :D itll be worth every hardwork you put in :D (funny i address you as pork, but since you write ur name as pork i might as well call you that.)

hahahaha.. back to mugging then :D

the reaction is definitely exothermic
with a very high activation energy
and a short-lived transition state
but like every exothermic reaction
the products is of a more stable state

HAHAHA, very funny, i seldom use chemistry cos usually i use physics :P
and NO NO, im not bullying :P hahaha

REVISION! help me help me help me! i mean, dont hesitate to ask for my help in subjects! cos it'll be the best way for me to revise :D and hopefully, i can help you understand more too! :D but if you got no confidence in me, then ask someone with higher grades :D ahahahaha..

YEP :D

PRELIMSSSS :S

glad that i still have you

lets build this up again. together.

finally it comes to this?
if you din notice, this is what i asked last time. to stop tolerating, to stop putting yourself in my shoe, and just start being what you are, saying what you want, saying whats on your mind. not to be someone who supports this relationship to keep it going, but to be part of the relationship.
but if this is where it lead to, then i rather turn back time. but like i said, i wont give up.

there are such things like catalyst.
they lower the condition for a reaction to happen

beware..

today is 17th august 2007!
indonesia 62nd independence day! :D
a pity that i failed to show up at the embassy today due to prelim preparation :P
no problem, lets sing the song!

Indonesia Raya


indonesian lyrics

Indonesia, tanah airku, tanah tumpah darahku.
Di sanalah aku berdiri, jadi pandu ibuku.
Indonesia, kebangsaanku, bangsa dan tanah airku.
Marilah kita berseru, "Indonesia bersatu!"
Hiduplah tanahku, hiduplah neg'riku,
Bangsaku, rakyatku, semuanya.
Bangunlah jiwanya, bangunlah badannya
Untuk Indonesia Raya!

CHORUS:
Indonesia Raya, merdeka, merdeka
Tanahku, neg'riku yang kucinta.
Indonesia Raya, merdeka, merdeka
Hiduplah Indonesia Raya! (*2)

Verse II

Indonesia tanah yang mulia, tanah kita yang kaya.
Disanalah aku berada untuk s'lama-lamanya.
Indonesia tanah pusaka, P'saka kita semuanya.
Marilah kita mendoa, "Indonesia bahagia!"
Suburlah tanahnya, suburlah jiwanya,
Bangsanya, rakyatnya, semuanya.
Sadarlah hatinya, Sadarlah budinya
Untuk Indonesia Raya!

CHORUS

Verse III

Indonesia, tanah yang suci, tanah kita yang sakti.
Di sanalah aku berdiri, Jaga ibu sejati.
Indonesia, tanah berseri, tanah yang aku sayangi.
Marilah kita berjanji, "Indonesia abadi!"
S'lamatlah Rakyatnya, S'lamatlah putranya,
Pulaunya, lautnya, semuanya.
Majulah negrinya, majulah pandunya
Untuk Indonesia Raya!

english translation

Indonesia my native land, the land where I shed my blood.
There I stand, being a soldier of my mother. (Note: "mother" here refers to ibu pertiwi which means 'motherland')
Indonesia my nationality, my nation and my country.
Let us exclaim "United Indonesia!"
Live my land, live my state,
My nation, my people, all.
Build its spirit, build its bodies
For Great Indonesia!

CHORUS:
Great Indonesia, independent and free,
My land, my country, which I love.
Great Indonesia, independent and free,
Live Great Indonesia! (*2)

Indonesia, an eminent country, our wealthy country.
There we shall be forever.
Indonesia, the country of our ancestors, a relic of all of us.
Let us pray for Indonesia's prosperity.
May her soil be fertile and spirited her soul,
The nation and all the people.
Conscious be her heart and her mind
For Indonesia the Great!

CHORUS

Indonesia, a sacred country, our victorious country.
There we stand, guarding our true Mother.
Indonesia, a beaming country, a country we love with all our heart.
Let's make a vow, "Indonesia be there forever!"
Blessed be her people and her sons,
All her islands, and her seas.
Fast be the country's progress and the progress of her youth
For Indonesia the Great!.

The Riddle
There was a man back in '95
Whose heart ran out of summers
But before he died, I asked him

Wait, what's the sense in life
Come over me, Come over me

He said,

Son why you got to sing that tune
Catch a Dylan song or some eclipse of the moon
Let an angel swing and make you swoon
Then you will see... You will see

Then he said,

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

Picked up my kid from school today

Did you learn anything cause in the world today
You can't live in a castle far away
Now talk to me, come talk to me

He said,

Dad I'm big but we're smaller than small
In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all
Still every mother's child sings a lonely song
So play with me, come play with me

And Hey Dad
Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

I said,

Son for all I've told you
When you get right down to the
Reason for the world...
Who am I?

There are secrets that we still have left to find
There have been mysteries from the beginning of time
There are answers we're not wise enough to see

He said... You looking for a clue I Love You free...

The batter swings and the summer flies
As I look into my angel's eyes
A song plays on while the moon is hiding over me
Something comes over me

I guess we're big and I guess we're small
If you think about it man you know we got it all
Cause we're all we got on this bouncing ball
And I love you free
I love you freely

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

hide/show

testing testing?? :D

hopefully with the countdowns i will be awake!
currently unaware of the situation that the final final exam is coming..
cant start concentrating.. cant start mugging..

someone pls wake me up..

today was smash finals,
i know i din do my best, i din even enjoy the game..
haha, i got trashed! maybe my opponent is really far better than me, i dont know..
wah, it feels so different without ryan and darius there, i practically really dont know what to do.. until now, how i can win is because of them.. told me my mistakes, opponents weakness, opponent strength, how to handle him, which way to hit, do lob or drop.. haha, depend too much on them and this is what happen..
today both of them cant come, haha, i dont blame them since it is my match, and jeremy was there to help me aniwae.. but its still different, darius would teach me how to win.. haha, yea, so i really dont know what is wrong today.. i cant feel the smashing and dropping and even lobbing kinda feeling, no strength to hit the shuttlecock all the way to the back, all easy-to-smash ball.. hahaa, sucky serving, sucky returns, no feeling to run, no motivation to beat the opponent.. its really totally different.. ahh..
maybe its because i dont know my mistakes.. i dont even know if my ball was far enough, was high enough, dont even know whether his ball was out or in..
i dont know whether i could have win, or its just he is too strong for me..
yea, basically, its like not having your eyes, ears, and nose and etc..
i dont have fun at all.. like i not even playing..
haha, yea, thanks for bringing me up to this point! :P
will try to do better next time.. :D
i wanna play doubles!