finally it comes to this?
if you din notice, this is what i asked last time. to stop tolerating, to stop putting yourself in my shoe, and just start being what you are, saying what you want, saying whats on your mind. not to be someone who supports this relationship to keep it going, but to be part of the relationship.
but if this is where it lead to, then i rather turn back time. but like i said, i wont give up.

there are such things like catalyst.
they lower the condition for a reaction to happen

beware..

today is 17th august 2007!
indonesia 62nd independence day! :D
a pity that i failed to show up at the embassy today due to prelim preparation :P
no problem, lets sing the song!

Indonesia Raya


indonesian lyrics

Indonesia, tanah airku, tanah tumpah darahku.
Di sanalah aku berdiri, jadi pandu ibuku.
Indonesia, kebangsaanku, bangsa dan tanah airku.
Marilah kita berseru, "Indonesia bersatu!"
Hiduplah tanahku, hiduplah neg'riku,
Bangsaku, rakyatku, semuanya.
Bangunlah jiwanya, bangunlah badannya
Untuk Indonesia Raya!

CHORUS:
Indonesia Raya, merdeka, merdeka
Tanahku, neg'riku yang kucinta.
Indonesia Raya, merdeka, merdeka
Hiduplah Indonesia Raya! (*2)

Verse II

Indonesia tanah yang mulia, tanah kita yang kaya.
Disanalah aku berada untuk s'lama-lamanya.
Indonesia tanah pusaka, P'saka kita semuanya.
Marilah kita mendoa, "Indonesia bahagia!"
Suburlah tanahnya, suburlah jiwanya,
Bangsanya, rakyatnya, semuanya.
Sadarlah hatinya, Sadarlah budinya
Untuk Indonesia Raya!

CHORUS

Verse III

Indonesia, tanah yang suci, tanah kita yang sakti.
Di sanalah aku berdiri, Jaga ibu sejati.
Indonesia, tanah berseri, tanah yang aku sayangi.
Marilah kita berjanji, "Indonesia abadi!"
S'lamatlah Rakyatnya, S'lamatlah putranya,
Pulaunya, lautnya, semuanya.
Majulah negrinya, majulah pandunya
Untuk Indonesia Raya!

english translation

Indonesia my native land, the land where I shed my blood.
There I stand, being a soldier of my mother. (Note: "mother" here refers to ibu pertiwi which means 'motherland')
Indonesia my nationality, my nation and my country.
Let us exclaim "United Indonesia!"
Live my land, live my state,
My nation, my people, all.
Build its spirit, build its bodies
For Great Indonesia!

CHORUS:
Great Indonesia, independent and free,
My land, my country, which I love.
Great Indonesia, independent and free,
Live Great Indonesia! (*2)

Indonesia, an eminent country, our wealthy country.
There we shall be forever.
Indonesia, the country of our ancestors, a relic of all of us.
Let us pray for Indonesia's prosperity.
May her soil be fertile and spirited her soul,
The nation and all the people.
Conscious be her heart and her mind
For Indonesia the Great!

CHORUS

Indonesia, a sacred country, our victorious country.
There we stand, guarding our true Mother.
Indonesia, a beaming country, a country we love with all our heart.
Let's make a vow, "Indonesia be there forever!"
Blessed be her people and her sons,
All her islands, and her seas.
Fast be the country's progress and the progress of her youth
For Indonesia the Great!.

The Riddle
There was a man back in '95
Whose heart ran out of summers
But before he died, I asked him

Wait, what's the sense in life
Come over me, Come over me

He said,

Son why you got to sing that tune
Catch a Dylan song or some eclipse of the moon
Let an angel swing and make you swoon
Then you will see... You will see

Then he said,

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

Picked up my kid from school today

Did you learn anything cause in the world today
You can't live in a castle far away
Now talk to me, come talk to me

He said,

Dad I'm big but we're smaller than small
In the scheme of things, well we're nothing at all
Still every mother's child sings a lonely song
So play with me, come play with me

And Hey Dad
Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

I said,

Son for all I've told you
When you get right down to the
Reason for the world...
Who am I?

There are secrets that we still have left to find
There have been mysteries from the beginning of time
There are answers we're not wise enough to see

He said... You looking for a clue I Love You free...

The batter swings and the summer flies
As I look into my angel's eyes
A song plays on while the moon is hiding over me
Something comes over me

I guess we're big and I guess we're small
If you think about it man you know we got it all
Cause we're all we got on this bouncing ball
And I love you free
I love you freely

Here's a riddle for you
Find the Answer
There's a reason for the world
You and I...

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testing testing?? :D

hopefully with the countdowns i will be awake!
currently unaware of the situation that the final final exam is coming..
cant start concentrating.. cant start mugging..

someone pls wake me up..

today was smash finals,
i know i din do my best, i din even enjoy the game..
haha, i got trashed! maybe my opponent is really far better than me, i dont know..
wah, it feels so different without ryan and darius there, i practically really dont know what to do.. until now, how i can win is because of them.. told me my mistakes, opponents weakness, opponent strength, how to handle him, which way to hit, do lob or drop.. haha, depend too much on them and this is what happen..
today both of them cant come, haha, i dont blame them since it is my match, and jeremy was there to help me aniwae.. but its still different, darius would teach me how to win.. haha, yea, so i really dont know what is wrong today.. i cant feel the smashing and dropping and even lobbing kinda feeling, no strength to hit the shuttlecock all the way to the back, all easy-to-smash ball.. hahaa, sucky serving, sucky returns, no feeling to run, no motivation to beat the opponent.. its really totally different.. ahh..
maybe its because i dont know my mistakes.. i dont even know if my ball was far enough, was high enough, dont even know whether his ball was out or in..
i dont know whether i could have win, or its just he is too strong for me..
yea, basically, its like not having your eyes, ears, and nose and etc..
i dont have fun at all.. like i not even playing..
haha, yea, thanks for bringing me up to this point! :P
will try to do better next time.. :D
i wanna play doubles!

ah, shit, no more internet.. now can only use at school T.T