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Lenz's law - For a current induced in a conductor, the current flows in such a direction that its own magnetic field opposes the change that produced it.
Le Chatelier's principle - If a chemical system at equilibrium experiences a change in concentration, temperature, volume, or total pressure; the equilibrium will shift in order to partially counter-act the imposed change

green with envy, red with jealousy.

I guess in life, all things have the nature of resisting change. when people give you plenty, you asked for less, when they give you less, you ask for more. i wish i could turn back time and undo all these.

yesterday was teachers day, a very happy day for me, with a very bitter ending. i really enjoyed being with you the whole day, i thought everything was fine and we can start again. i guess im just naive. things changed and it is not as easy as saying we will start new. everything is different now.

i guess there were times where things were different. and i wasted all my chance. and this is all i have now. i just have to stop being selfish and start to accept things as it is. if you can, why cant i?

i guess there were times when you feel exactly what im feeling now. and maybe im feeling what you are feeling. but there were times too where we felt the exact same thing. the love, the need for one another, and all the time we had for each other. i miss those times. but i guess things do change. and maybe its for the better. i dont know.

there were also times where all revolve around us. or maybe around me. everyday i see your messages, your friendster comments, your tags, your call.. i really miss all those. but it really is my fault that i neglected those. there were times where i didnt event reply your comment, your messages and all.

i miss the times where you call me everytime you could. i miss the times where i see your message everyday and everytime. i miss you calling me when im playing badminton. miss the times where you want to meet me as often as you can. miss the times where we always find each other at school. especially miss the times when you really need me.

there were times too, when i always find hidden sentences or words in your blog, that makes me feel happy and important. especially after we had a wonderful day, ill always go to your blog and wait for your updates and things that make me smile cause i know that i am important for you. but there were times, when i dont write about you here, and i guess its time for you to not write about me.

when i went into my cave, i told you to find your own cave for the time. im just being selfish. but sometimes i do need time alone and with my friends, and the other time, i just need you and only you. i guess when i took that break everything changed. you get used to being without me, not needing me, not depending on me and all. where what i used to want was some time off. but i guess i sorta put it wrongly and made you learn to be more independent. or too independent. but i guess you feel that the current situation is better. since you are already used to it.

when i returned from my cave, i dont find you there anymore.

i hope that, like me, it is just time that made you feel you dont need me as much as you did. but it seems like a slim chance cause it is a different case for you and me. for me, it was just a need to pull away. but for you, i think everything was changed and in fact you dont need me to be there for you, you can already stand with your own foot. you dont need me to carry you anymore. maybe its good for you. maybe thats what you always wanted.

if that is the case, i hope that one day when you feel tired of standing by yourself, you'll let me carry you again. i just want you to know that being able to stand yourself doesnt mean you dont need other people to carry you. and i hope, someday ill have the chance again.

now that im just one of the people you love, i miss being the only one. but dont mind that, i cant be selfish, and i wont. anyway, in the first place, i asked for this. im glad that you find people that you love now. i guess ill just have to share with them.

im sorry for causing you all these troubles, to make you used for being without me, not needing me and now im asking for you to need me again. but no, i shouldnt, its no more about me. you got your classmates, your cca mates, and your other many friends to take care off too. i hope there is still a little space left for me, and i hope there is still a part of you, even small, that needs me, that clings on me, that loves me as much as you used to.

or perhaps, now its my turn to change and get used being without you and not being needed by you. its my turn to change to someone who accept things without asking for so much when giving nothing in return. its my turn to get used to all these. and maybe, not needing you so much too.

i guess, i just miss those times when we really need each other and cant do without one another.

i guess i have to get used to not being the one
and learn to accept that im only one of them.

i guess its just selfish for me to want you to need me all the time.